Let's move on.....

So, this last month has been a really hard month. There have been a few things specifically, but generally no specific reason - just a hard month.

Jon is in the middle of midterms and some of his classes he is not enjoying as much as others, which, unfortunately, also means it's harder to study and therefore marks aren't as well as he would like them to be, which translates into finding it even harder to study - vicious cycle I know. I wish I could do more to help him out - that "let's try to fix this" part of me wants to snap my fingers and make it all better, to take that pain, disappointment, frustration all away so that he can realize the amazing talent that he has. But alas, I do not have the ability and if it really came down to it, I probably would not change anything because "what doesn't kill us, will only make us stronger" right?

I won't try to pretend that the only reason that this has been a hard month has been because of Jon's school issues. I have had my own issues as well, my hormones are so out of whack, and no I am not pregnant, that I have been on a constant rollercoaster of emotions. One minutes I am giddy, laughing (almost too much so) the next I am crying, and for no particular reason, which is almost worse.

I have to remind myself that the month is almost over and starting on Sunday we get to move on...past this month. We can take what we have learned from this very trying month and continue on. Heavenly Father, in His infinate wisdom, allows us to struggle, stumble and even hurt. Not because He is mean, but because He loves us (all of us) so much and wants us to return home to Him, and to do so we have to be strong, even if that only means strong enough to ask for help. Maybe that is what it means in the Beatitudes in the book of Mathew in the New Testament when it says in Matthew 5:5 "Blessed are the meek for they shall inherit the earth" . "The Meek" are always thought to be weak, but really they are the strongest they know to seek Him who can truly lift their burdens....

Well then, that' s more thought provoking that I had intended.....

Have a happy halloween
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That was a lot.....

I can't believe how many pictures that was - somewhere in the back of my mind I knew that I had done stuff over the last year, but WOW and I haven't even got to my brother's wedding, but I really want to write and post pics together because it was such a wonderful day.

Well that's all for tonight.